RoLlEr CoAstEr

ugh. i feel as if my life has been an ongoing roller coaster since i started college in the fall. actually, i don't just feel like it has been, i know it has. and i feel bad because i'm not the only one on this ride... i have drug parents on it with me,my boyfriend who has to listen to me and hear the tears, and my cousin who i am forever glad she has been here for me, and a handful of other fabulous friends.

I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM! <3

but i'm not exactly sure what triggers my roller coaster ride. i like the school, the classes aren't bad, i love love love being a delta delta delta girl, so what is it? i think it is living in a dorm. i like being on the go and not being confined to a space. and then here, at school, i am stuck in a 10x10 cement block box with no place else to go back to at the end of the day. i need a couch. i hate using my bed as a couch and no place else to sit. i need more space to get up and walk around to. i think that is my problem. next year i plan on getting an apartment. i tihnk that will help me out tremendously.

i just hate crying all the time because i have to go back to my dorm. and it upsets my mom that i'm upset and there is nothing she can do about it.

i just want to be happy... any suggestions??

xoxo. me.